July 4 2025

I fuckin hate fireworks.
I dreamt of Li over and over,
like when I was a kid.

I dreamt that he wrote me another letter,
scribbles, frustrated,
"I don't understand what's wrong"

the second dream,
we were at that beach place.
He told me what I think is true.
His eyes would be so pretty crying.

I try to shake the thoughts.

It cycles through
You or you or you or even you.

It's only because I'll be close soon.
Sleep in your bed and still just dream of seeing you.

That dream I had of seeing Rico with that girl, it came true. She looked just like that. Just like that. Unexpected time and...
I used to dream that Li walked to
another room, dodging my eyes...

Sleep in your bed and only dream of seeing you.
yeah.
Fucked but true.